This is my first proper vlog. A vlog with talky bits. A vlog with my face. Where I document how I’m undertaking a structural edit of my novel.
I don’t know what I feel most daunted about. The edit (it’s a major edit) or putting my face up there onto YouTube.
It’s incredibly exposing opening myself up like this. It is also incredibly scary. Am I risking criticism, trolls, comments I can’t handle? Possibly.
Undertaking an edit like this though is something I’ve never attempted before. And when I’m scared, with little confidence, I’m prone to procrastination. I’ll put all my energies into other projects and put this one off. Because it seems so big. Massive. Like I could never achieve it.
The only way I could see myself going through with it, is by filming it. That is my deadline.
It is one thing writing 70,000 words. It’s quite another to craft those words, those sentences, paragraphs and chapters into something cohesive. Something that’ll entertain, keep the reader gripped, and tells the story that you’ve had in your head for so long to the best of your ability.
Right now I’m at a pretty low point with my writing. And exposing myself like this could go one of two ways. But, I’m trying to convince the 25% of myself that wants to give up that writing is worth pursuing. So this is almost do or die. Pushing myself to do something that frightens me.
Please be kind…