My Writing Journey

Permission

A Bookish Baker

I didn’t know people wrote like this.

Ok, I did, but I didn’t realise it was something people read…

Alright, that’s not true either.

I didn’t think it was something I could do.

The thing is when I heard Laura Jane Williams speak at the Blogtacular conference last weekend something clicked. It was a soft click during the workshop; after all I was busy taking part in the writing exercises, listening to her words.

But on the train home. Something happened. Like the point controller pulling the lever and the engine switching tracks.

I thought at first it was deflation. Disappointment. Because when I get emotional, when my head is filled with tears that refuse to come, that’s a natural reason, right? It could, I mused, even have been the start of a vulnerability hangover as Lisa Congdon in the keynote speech talked about. And I’d talked to lots of strangers all day. Put myself out there. For someone whose day usually involves talking to just chickens, ducks and the dog this was a big ask.

But that wasn’t it.

Laura said that not everyone would agree with what she had to say on the subject of writing. And she’s right. She thinks blogging is dead.  I don’t, but I do think it is evolving.

But everything else she uttered? I was nodding my head in agreement throughout. If she’d seen me out of the corner of her eye she’d have thought I was a nodding dog. The loon from that advert.

Of course, when I get home I find her blog. Superlatively Rude it’s called. I’m binge reading it. I order her book, Becoming. She’s from Derby, like me, you know. I’ll gloss over the fact she’s a decade younger than me.

I now know exactly what I want to write next. Laura’s workshop showed me that. And even though I shouldn’t need it, she gave me permission. So I gave myself permission.

The un-shed tears? Turns out they were because of inspiration and ambition.

Perhaps this is my becoming.

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9 Comments

  • Reply Emma

    I was also in this workshop, and your writing just sums it up beautifully!

    21st June 2016 at 8:28 pm
    • Reply Helen Redfern

      Thank you, Emma!

      22nd June 2016 at 9:27 am
  • Reply Old Fashioned Susie

    Ah great post- was such a fantastic workshop wasnt it!

    22nd June 2016 at 12:43 pm
    • Reply Helen Redfern

      Thank you! Yes, brilliant workshop.

      22nd June 2016 at 3:07 pm
  • Reply Kara

    It was a fantastic workshop, it inspired me but I know my writing is nowhere near being able to improve, but you have wrote beautifully xx

    22nd June 2016 at 4:43 pm
  • Reply Lol @ Geek Almighty

    Great post Helen & so lovely to meet you – hey, I’ve still not thought of a rubbish idea for you to write about 😉

    23rd June 2016 at 2:01 pm
  • Reply Elizabeth

    Sounds like an amazing workshop!

    http://lizziedailyblog.blogspot.co.uk/

    25th June 2016 at 4:39 pm
  • Reply Sarah @ Say Little Hen

    Great post Helen – I wish you all the best with your writing!
    Your blog has helped me embrace my writing more – and actually call it that, not just “I’ve got to do a blog post / magazine article.” I now say to myself “I’m writing”. It looks rather pathetic when put in text but I suspect you will understand what I mean :-)

    I’ve recently discovered and am enjoying Ali Luke’s blog: http://www.aliventures.com/

    I don’t think blogging is dead, I think it’s actually making a comeback. But I think it is evolving too. It’s now inclusive of social media, newsletter lists, podcasts and videos. People want something different out of bloggers than they used to – but they still want the blogs.

    27th June 2016 at 1:08 pm
    • Reply Helen Redfern

      I understand exactly what you mean. And it is writing. You *are* a writer! Will check out that link. Thank you!

      29th June 2016 at 11:53 am

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