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To just be

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Scroll, scroll, scroll. That’s me, on my phone, checking twitter. Checking instagram. Tweeting, hashtaging, uploading, replying, re-tweeting. And on and on it goes.

I started tweeting more at the beginning of this year. Trying to build my audience, connecting with like-minded individuals. Sharing information, photos, blog posts. And it’s been great.

But, see, I’m a bit all or nothing.

And soon I was doing it aimlessly. I stopped reading books (God, I feel awful typing that), days would pass me by, and my creativity that I should be reserving for my books, my writing, was being leached into one hundred and forty characters or less.

Scroll, scroll, scroll. Refresh, refresh, refresh.

poppy

Over the past couple of weeks, as I wrote in this post, I’ve taken a step back from twitter. And I deleted facebook from my phone.

But, on Saturday, I decided I needed to take a complete break from it.

There is a lot of worry, a lot of anxiety online. And I’m like a sponge. I soak it all up. There comes a point where you have to just stop.

And that’s my cue to take a deep breath. To take a look around. See the beauty. Watch the chickens, see how the chicks have grown, how they squabble, how the ducks love their pool, the flowers swaying in the breeze, the moths and butterflies settling on the wildflowers.

wildflower meadow

I talk about embracing a slower life, but, just for a minute there, I was too caught up tweeting about a slow life, rather than experiencing it. I forget that tweeting is still part of my work. It’s me not switching off. And switching off, taking a break is so important.

Since I came off twitter on Saturday, I’ve already found myself with an urge to write more. To get outside. To watch a film and read a book.

Funny that.

wildflower meadow

I won’t be gone permanently from twitter and facebook. And I might still blog. After all, the words are tumbling out now.

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12 Comments

  • Reply Judy

    I do understand how you feel the last few weeks have shocked me too at how far people will go to try and press their opinions on everyone. Can’t they see how little all this matters. Have they lost all thought of the really important and simple things in life. I have come to the conclusion that there are still many of us who can still see how beautiful the sunset is and how sweetly the robins sing. I do hope you feel better soon, the world is still turning and the chickens still happily scratching around. Our two rheas have just hatched 8 babies and so it goes on. It’s still a beautiful world and cakes still smell like heaven baking in the oven! Take care.

    4th July 2016 at 10:24 pm
    • Reply Helen Redfern

      I love your comment, Judy. And 8 babies! Fantastic :)

      11th July 2016 at 9:31 am
  • Reply julie

    Your post resonates so much with me Helen. I feel the same way at the moment. Life passes by at such speed and we only get one chance to grasp each moment and make it count. I’m also trying to spend as much time in real life pursuits that give me peace and pleasure and I hope you find a gentle productivity to your days soothes your soul and brings you joy xxx

    5th July 2016 at 10:02 am
    • Reply Helen Redfern

      Good luck, Julie. I already feel so much better after a week of not so much social media and more real life pursuits.

      11th July 2016 at 9:30 am
  • Reply CJ

    Something similar happened to me with Twitter. I still have it, but I don’t check it nearly so much now. It’s so easy to get sucked into screen time I find.

    5th July 2016 at 9:18 pm
    • Reply Helen Redfern

      Oh it really is so easy to get sucked in.

      11th July 2016 at 9:29 am
  • Reply Gwen

    This is so familiar. I’ve found myself in a habit of scrolling, refreshing and toggling between the sites, and it’s definitely not good for me. I think I might take a lead out of your book and step back too, for my own sake.

    6th July 2016 at 10:26 pm
    • Reply Helen Redfern

      It really does help. Though I’ve found the scrolling habits creeping back which I’m curtailing from today!

      11th July 2016 at 9:28 am
  • Reply Steph

    I know exactly what you mean! I have always struggled in some way to switch off, it isn’t something that comes naturally and frustrates my husband endlessly. We had a week off a couple of weeks ago, and I forced myself to slow down. We had day trips, I started feeding the birds in our garden and just slowed down. I haven’t done anything so valuable for a long time.

    10th July 2016 at 12:22 pm
    • Reply Helen Redfern

      It is hard initially, Steph, I completely agree.

      11th July 2016 at 9:38 am
  • Reply Penny

    I agree Helen. Social media is like a big snake eating its own tail. X

    10th July 2016 at 8:31 pm
    • Reply Helen Redfern

      Love this description, Penny!

      11th July 2016 at 9:26 am

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